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Do I merely exist in the shadow of another woman?

Clawing for the light… for the escape, the way back…

Or forward…

sometimes I can't remember.

I'm striving for perfection at the expense of my self respect

Close to tears, aching to breathe, holding my stomach

Shaking my head and swearing to myself

Hating myself, yet not wanting to give up

Ignoring my own better judgement

and the advice of others.

I can't let go

I cannot stop… not now that I have come so far…

Not now that I feel so much…

 

I think if I can just convince you

Make you see..

See 'ME'…

Ignoring the future, denying the present

imprisoned in the past,

YOUR past.

Unable to break through

I stand outside your wall banging my fists in frustration

Asking and begging for you to love me

will I always envy the one that I hate

And that you only wish you did?

And yet you just look…

 

And when you do look at me, is all that you see,

that I am not her?

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