Boughtandpaidfor Posted August 22, 2006 Share Posted August 22, 2006 At 4.30am in the morning On a hot and sticky night in Japan I sat alone and wondered blankly With no hope of catharsis Where the path forward might be It's all a joke though Because I've come to the crossroads Before and I turned back With three possible avenues I chose instead To unravel what little had been done I chose fear and emptiness There's no denying it Except that (and here's the kick) I chose denial too- so even my admission Is tainted with lack of insight At 4.30am on a hot sticky Japan night I sat in my happy village And I admitted, not thoroughly though That I had elected for a life of confusion Why you might ask? And I can't answer Or I wouldn't be here. I'm no longer deserving of such clarity I've made my choice And, in self-pity I admit, I hate where it's left me But it's hard not to feel like this At half after four on a humid morning I don't mind being stupid That's okay And I can deal with the lack of mental stability I brought that on myself I'm not interested in any kind of nirvana Or heaven- I would settle for one second Of self truth I lie and I lie and I lie to myself constantly over and over again and I hate it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Daddy Bear Posted August 22, 2006 Share Posted August 22, 2006 i'm not a big poetry reader, but i wouldn't mind having a book full of stuff like that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Boughtandpaidfor Posted August 23, 2006 Author Share Posted August 23, 2006 i'm not a big poetry reader, but i wouldn't mind having a book full of stuff like that. That'sa great thing to say!!! Thanks very much!! Thought I read it and cringe in the morning......but still feel the same way...... so still like the poem, but still feel a bit pointless... swings and roundabouts- can't have art without pain I guess. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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