eleanorrigby1 Posted July 19, 2006 Share Posted July 19, 2006 The one that held you before Just to think of her grieves And hurts And I expel the pain physically, almost as though I am possessed. It's the fleeting thoughts and feelings and realisations They tear at my abdomen and burn my insides I ache to be free and no amount of talking or reassurance Seeks to dissolve the image or the pedestal Her name like a dirty word, or a stain that stabs when falling from your lips The lips that I kiss so frequently and adore The lips that she once kissed and from which you spoke those words I wish to erase her, from your mind, from life From existence I ache to know everything about her And that which I know I wish I did not I want to put my hands inside of myself and tear out the memories of the conversations we've had So that I never heard her name, or of the love you once felt. I had love myself and I pained at its loss And I dreamt of winning back that which was lost So I know of that love and of that pain And of a past that remains but is also paled and insignificant I know that I love you in the most intense way I ever loved anybody And I adore the very ground you walk on I look at you and I hope and I wish for my future with you You are all that I wished for and want you embody all that I need I seek only to erase both our pasts so that we may live as each other's first But alas! Or at least live as each other's last… Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
deviousj420 Posted July 19, 2006 Share Posted July 19, 2006 That is deep- that is an awesome poem May I ask what inspired you to write that? i feel the same way... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
yeawutever Posted July 19, 2006 Share Posted July 19, 2006 Very enhancing poem indeed!!!!!!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Daddy Bear Posted July 19, 2006 Share Posted July 19, 2006 nice work! very effective and easy to relate to. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
eleanorrigby1 Posted July 21, 2006 Author Share Posted July 21, 2006 Thank you very much for your nice comments. Yeah I have been struggling with the old jealousy of the ex stuff with my boyfriend and we had a big conversation about it and he kept reassuring me that he adores me and thats his past and I said to him "no amount of reasuring seems to erase the pedestal I have her on.." I know its ridiculous but I came i work and I sat at my desk and I wrote a few poems and they took seconds to write, it was all the rubbish thats inside me puring out: I went through something similar with an ex years ago who was still inlove with his ex and ultimately left me for her and i wrote this around that time: Not Her I exist in the shadow of another woman Striving for perfection at the expense of my self respect Close to tears, aching to breathe, holding my stomach Shaking my head and swearing to myself Hating myself, yet not wanting to give up Ignoring my own better judgement for the sake of being shallow Do I lust or love or simply long for the latter and so obsess with the idea? Gazing into the future ignoring the present In a prison of the past, your past. I'm unable to break through I stand outside your wall banging my fists in frustration Asking and begging for you to love me and you just look And when you do look at me, is all that you see, that I am not her? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pablovblack Posted July 21, 2006 Share Posted July 21, 2006 I think your poem is wonderful, Its is very fluent. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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