Still the Same

[blueangel]

Can't seem to find you

Seem to struggle instead

Not just walking through life

But even getting out of bed

 

Who am I supposed to be?

I can't carry me

Alone, though I am strong.

There's something just so wrong

About a person

When they pull away from love

Like I do

When they're scared of scary thoughts

In the night, when I'm frightened as I am

And though I pray

It takes day

Until I find you again

But peace is gone by then

 

I've tried to open my eyes

Reach accross with my voice

To have my own song and sights

But it's not enough for these heartless nights

When I'm lying in the bloodshed

Of my beating heart

As it wakes slowly

In the surrounding dark

 

Something's missing

I cant distract myself for long

Someone's missing

I can have goals for thoughts

But still it's missing

And I'm wishing

For it to go away

But here I'm standing

Still the same

 

These waves they hit me

As I dream

And all that's real

Screams in me

The nightmares, the pictures in my head

There's something inside there so dead

I can feel it. The grief.

A whole person

Taken from me

Years ago it seems all the time

Now only does it start filling my mind

please, don't haunt me

Please, let me sleep

I am feeling guilty

For all that was bittersweet

And although God is hard to find

You find me all too often, my pain

Yes, it's true

 

It's like everything remains.

[yeawutever]

Very creative poem, I like the word usage!!!!!!!!!!