eleanorrigby1 Posted May 11, 2006 Share Posted May 11, 2006 I wrote this poem last year as I was falling for my new boyfriend. I had been heartbroken in the past: The land lies barren, dry and bare no evidence of the flowers that once grew there The sun seems to shine so much stronger than before yet the flowers stay hidden beneath the floor afraid of the very thing that seems to give life holding onto a memory of their past life where they once danced in the sun and smiled in the rain beautiful, happy, but then came the pain they wilted then fell and turned into stone before crawling back under to be left alone not wishing, not wanting to be set free they could not cope with any more misery. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
eleanorrigby1 Posted May 11, 2006 Author Share Posted May 11, 2006 I love you like a rope pulling tight around my heart I love you like I can't breath until we are apart My stomach hurts, my heart beats fast I'm scared to hope that we might last I look at you with eyes that shine, and cannot believe that you are mine When you hold me a lump seems to form in my throat I wear my fear like an old comfortable coat Yet flowers and hearts also dance in my eyes And I know with my breath I could tell you no lies A feeling so rare and so new it's a stranger to me I keep asking all "is this how its meant to be?" But I wouldn't be without it, if it meant no us two I'd rather live in emotional hell than in heaven without you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
eleanorrigby1 Posted May 11, 2006 Author Share Posted May 11, 2006 I wasn't happy when I was with him, neither happy before, or immediately after When I loved him it wasn't him, it was the person he said he was The person I wanted him to be, the feeling I wanted to feel It wasn't me that he met, or pretended to love She was the one who held me prisoner, the one who cried each night and yet continued to let him use her She thought that she was protecting me inside of her perfect shell But in doing so she began to reject me And hide me, Suffocating me until I was lost Lost in who I thought he was and who he wanted me to be Until no one wanted anyone He no longer wanted me and I wasn't sure who I saw or wanted when I looked at him or in the mirror.. yet it felt like dying to say goodbye And it felt like a funeral in the days that followed and I grieved for the loss of something that never existed The rejection tattooed into me, burned into my flesh Reaching inside, wrapping itself around my lungs and my heart Until I couldn't breathe Until I couldn't feel. Yet in the numbness came me Amidst the chaos and confusion I rode in on my white horse And I picked up the remains of her and I threw them out I didn't need protecting from me I just needed to BE me In the clarity came someone else and then came feeling, Breathing, then Loving, And with the loving came fear but in the fear came understanding and I understand my fear, yet continue to love.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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