AntiLove_SuperStar Posted May 3, 2006 Share Posted May 3, 2006 Brace yourself, this is AntiLove_SuperStar being unusually positive on Enotalone. Today (in a relevant casual discussion, not just randomly) my boyfriend said "Emily, I love you" whilst looking right in my eyes, centimetres between our pupils. Was punching the air, grinning and going "SCCOOOORRREEE!" an appropriate response? No matter, he must be able to live with the impulsivity by this point (7 months). 10 months ago or so I was almost dead as far as lovelife went, I lost someone I loved with if not every, then virtually every, fibre of my being. When I met Xal I didn't hold back exactly, but I was slower to get as attached. Then events overtook us for a while...his father's death, my Bipolar disorder being worse than it has ever been. It has not been an easy year this far, not at all. And there are many challenges yet to face - between us, we have illness, graduation, exams, moving house and more to deal with yet. But as he drove me home in his (new - nice bonus-) car and then painstakingly unloaded a large canvas of mine he'd insisted on carrying round all afternoon in town just for a few hours of each others' time, I realised that even if we ended tomorrow, he's shown me that it is definitely possible to fall completely in love again, and that is frankly ****ing priceless. Not in a clingy, needy way. Just in a very real way that means my heart smacks around like a gopher on crack at least once every 15 minutes when I look at him. Reassuringly, there are even times when, by God, he really annoys me. But it's never for a grand total of more than say... 4 whole minutes? I normally change my avatar more often, but I'm leaving this picture up of him awhile longer. That's nauseating, isn't it? But I Don't Care. Baby, I Just Don't Care Tonight! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
renaissancewoman101 Posted May 3, 2006 Share Posted May 3, 2006 Anti-Love, I am glad that things are looking up for you. You deserve it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dako Posted May 3, 2006 Share Posted May 3, 2006 That's nauseating, isn't it? That's the best sort of nausea to deal with. I'm very happy for you! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AwdreeHpburn Posted May 3, 2006 Share Posted May 3, 2006 Hey Antilove - or shall we say PRO-love for a while - I know what you mean and can relate to the feeling that even if it ended you feel you'd be ok and comfortable with the lessons learned etc. i think that's a totally awesome feeling. Sounds like a pretty heathy relationship. I'm glad for you. Sounds llike you've got one of the good guys. I hope for you lasting happiness. Or at least that the intervals of annoyance decrease to 2 minutes per time.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ElektraHere Posted May 3, 2006 Share Posted May 3, 2006 I am very happy for you and I am glad you have changed your avatar. I hope to see more smiles from you Your a beautiful girl and dont hide behind the hair, let your happiness and light exude. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sylph Posted May 3, 2006 Share Posted May 3, 2006 Well you know my stance on love, Antilove. But whatever makes you happy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tigris Posted May 3, 2006 Share Posted May 3, 2006 I agree with Electra that you're a beautiful girl and I'd like to see you with a big grin on your face. I'm pleased that you're so happy. I hope it continues for years! Good luck Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PRSOV Posted May 3, 2006 Share Posted May 3, 2006 Congratulations, I wish you all the best in your new love! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
itsallgrand Posted May 3, 2006 Share Posted May 3, 2006 Ok Ms. ALovesuperstar, you're gonna make me go all girly. That was soo ridiculously cute. I'm very happy for you. Love is a good good thing! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hope75 Posted May 3, 2006 Share Posted May 3, 2006 It is possible that you will chance your name to "Love Superstar"? I'm very happy for you Emily, that is refreshing news indeed. Is that him on your avatar? He's cute- very dark colouring like you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
eljose Posted May 4, 2006 Share Posted May 4, 2006 That is wonderful. Confirms what I feel about a love, it does return, and moves us to some place new when it does. Enjoy it for all it is worth. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
yeawutever Posted May 4, 2006 Share Posted May 4, 2006 Glad to hear that!!!!!!!!!!!!! :splat: Remember to always be here whenever you have a problem, you can count on us, this is home sweet home. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AntiLove_SuperStar Posted May 4, 2006 Author Share Posted May 4, 2006 Thanks everyone. I have many many other problems, I'm not going anywhere! (That was him on my avatar, yes... he does look not entirely dissimilar to myself) Love SuperStar is a bit too upbeat for me, my cynicism is a trademark.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AwdreeHpburn Posted May 4, 2006 Share Posted May 4, 2006 lol... mine too. Cynics rock. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spugly Fuglet Posted May 4, 2006 Share Posted May 4, 2006 AntiLove_SuperStar see more hope must be the sunshine. happy for you and get painting that canvis, any chance you can show us some of your work. Today is a good day Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Daddy Bear Posted May 6, 2006 Share Posted May 6, 2006 *punching the air, grinning* woo-hoo! nice to see the clouds parting above you, Ant. btw, Emily is the coolest name ever (and currently the most popular girl baby name in the US). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AntiLove_SuperStar Posted May 6, 2006 Author Share Posted May 6, 2006 I'll tell my parents you said that' they'll be pleased ;-) It's No.1 name in England for girls as well..or at least it has been at some point in the last few years, hazy memory that I have. Go me! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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