Cant touch it, Cant try

[blueangel]

There's something going on inside my head

By the time i'm feeling, I'm feeling dead

A tension there that leaves me floating in the air

As the world disappears

 

Something with my brain- weakness is what I gain

The days go by and so I try

To accomplish all that I can

But it's like a metal barrier is there

I can't focus, I can't wake up

 

I daydream, I dwell

Don't know what to do with myself

It's so strange, is it God?

Should I reach for him

In the stars?

 

Do I have the strength to sacrifise such time

So release the pain from within my mind?

To give my soul, to commit to

When I can barely

Barely move

 

All the things I know I can do

It just waits

I go slower

And it fades

I try to talk to you

I try to reach for help

I try to understand it

But I'm silencing inside now

 

What is happening

To this mind of mine?

It's like all that ever was

Is no longer there inside

The only way to move

Is when I write it down

From second to second

Always trying to figure stuff out

 

What to do next

Should I build on this part of my life?

Should I commit to them?

But I'm being silenced in this fight

 

No thoughts, just knowledge

Seeping through my soul

Forcing me to slow down

To look around too

Live in the now and love it here

Serve my God

It's all so clear

More time I've been given like I asked

No distractions, just unfinished tasks

 

Yet, nothing happens

It's all so slow

Nothing to live for

And it shows

When I walk down the hall

So empty are my eyes

I bet you'd never guess

What's going on in my mind

 

Cant touch it, cant try

God, I need your help

Help me to move

Move and live my life out

Let me get this done

Let me accomplish things here

Let me live my life

Even if it's in my mind

Let me see it clear

 

Let the rain fall

Let me feel and dance

Let me see it all

Just stay by my side

 

I don't want to tell them

Anymore how I feel

I just want someone beside me

Standing there, my dear

Just stay by me

Stay for a little while

maybe you'll be the one

To bring my soul back out

 

Just stay by me

Lullabies this night

Rock me in gown

As I lie a frozen sight

I'm not mute, I swear

I'm just waiting here

I've given up on you

So all that I'm used to

They just disappear

 

So stand beside me

Stand tall

So when I look up

Without a word- I know

You understand it all

 

Because it's all I've ever wanted

All that would matter

If for once someone would

Take my heart so shattered

And hold it...

Here

[itsallgrand]

That's lovely. I think it would make a good song.