valenski Posted January 13, 2006 Share Posted January 13, 2006 Do I deserve it? At the end of another bitter day, another bitter fight, wishing it was the end of my bitter life I stand in her doorway rose wilted, face contorted, heart heavy Yes, I screwed up we all have but this time forgiveness was unsure Mind pacing, tricks of an over active imagination Has she found someone new? I deserve it, to be left with my wicked self, egotistic, the chauvinistic bastard that I am Raring its ugly head, proud and insensitive, impertinent and just plain stupid My action was consequential but I never considered Now here I am waiting for what seems to be an eternity What will be my fate? Will she be colder than the night air? The victim, now my executioner Mercy, do I deserve? Was I merciful? Chauvinism knows none The plan, on my knees is where I'll beg for clemency On my knees I'll pray for benevolence I hear footfalls sweep along the sidewalk, a conversation indistinct but I know it's her She's with someone? What have I done? Who is it? Must I hide? No! I'll stand my ground I'm ready to dispatch my contender if needs be Face flushed with anger, fist clenched, teeth grinding ready to leap, attack, STOP! She bids her companion goodnight, back to defcon five, penitence and pathetic subservience A flicker of condescendence before the inquisition "What do you want?" Stern faced, she glared but betraying eyes showed hurt My eyes watered, my heart melted, what a fool I am From my lips came not what I had plan to say but words of heart felt anguish Not prayers for forgiveness but lexis of empathy and remorse How could I ask for clemency knowing earlier I bestowed none? I presented my gift and defeated by my own conscience, I treated, broken but justified That moment was the darkest, loneliest, inconsolable moment but I was willing to endure I know I was wrong and I have to live with that. I wished her the best Five steps away from her she called out to me And even though I didn't deserve it, she forgave me anywhere. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Msnak Posted January 13, 2006 Share Posted January 13, 2006 Absolutely soul bearing. What a style you have, keep writing! You're awesome! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ShySoul Posted January 14, 2006 Share Posted January 14, 2006 Agreed. You really put your soul into that and it shines through. Descriptive and powerful. Inspiring as well. Keep writing, it was great. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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