venus777 Posted January 5, 2006 Share Posted January 5, 2006 8 hours south through the rain Music bumping, I thought not of the pain Of 9 years past. My teeth clenched, I drove I drove and I drove I did not stop til I got there Beauty met me in the smiles of friends In the gentle caresses of a mother and child Sweet caring That I knew distorted By mental illness and lithium pills And sweaty dreams of my mother turning into a man Big roaches, statues statues statues of Mary, Rosaries and 5 Life Sentences to Purgatory And my heart tightens like my throat does Wish something different in this world That I could give Than what I knew and heard My diary burned, She is a Satan Worshipper Bad Girl Bad Girl Bad Girl And… the fists in my face my body all bent The tears ripped from my body with abandon ment Memories like reflections all distorted and confused I did not notice the empty chairs In the nonsensical world of mental delusion I was a mischievous girl with black nails And green painted lips Rejecting rejecting rejecting Rejection Fearing Genetics And the gentle smooth voice of a friend as she says I’m Sorry. I’m Sorry. I’m Sorry that happened to you I’m glad you escaped. Washes over me. I wish I were a child again So I could bury my head in your shoulder Feel sweet caresses And hear you say You Are Good. I Love You. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ShySoul Posted January 6, 2006 Share Posted January 6, 2006 Nice. I wish it was possible to go back to being a child again, to have the kind of wonderful childhood we all wish we could have, one that isn't filled with all the mixed up issues that seem to be all to common. I'm sorry or what you experienced. But the past is the past, can't be changed. What counts now is that we look to the future. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
venus777 Posted January 6, 2006 Author Share Posted January 6, 2006 oh well, it's more than that. i have a little sister and brother that live with my parents. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ShySoul Posted January 7, 2006 Share Posted January 7, 2006 Ah, thats a little different. Hope you can work through the issues so you can be around your siblings. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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