From_Now_On Posted June 20, 2005 Share Posted June 20, 2005 I've asked so much of you already Things started out rocky and now they're finally growing steady So I guess I have thought to myself now I'll complicate this yet, somehow Cuz this is something good It's got 'real' and 'forever' bursting at the seams So let me rip and ruin this all up and leave a nice big mess Trying to figure what it means Cuz that's what I do best And I care about you so much, I do So of course my first thought is: "How shall I selfishly hurt you?" Call me stupid and slap me smart Before I blow this whole thing apart Wake me up, revive me now If I'm alive I want to survive long enough to feel this somehow You tickle feelings inside me that I thought were long dead Saying the things I have been waiting so long to hear said But I'm not singing from the mountaintops just yet Cuz inside I'm about as scared as I could ever get I feel everything but it won't penetrate this surface I know a part of me is holding back on purpose And I'm sorry It's not fair to you at all How you can show me how much you care for me Only to find you're speaking to a wall And there's four built up all around me baby So very tight and capped with a floor and ceiling My exterior smiles and oh, I'd love to feel For an instant I do, only to find…it can't be real You're everything I've wanted Handed over, no questions asked I don't want to say that I don't feel this Cuz I know you'll think I'm just holding to the past And I'm not What I got is what I've wanted more than anything before Baby, I know it's crazy, but I could never want more I feel this, I do Every moment here with you But it's like a dream It's like I'm watching through someone else's eyes I can't be that girl Cuz I'm not alive Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shorty20 Posted June 24, 2005 Share Posted June 24, 2005 I love it... i can totally relate to what you're going through... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GettingOverIt Posted June 24, 2005 Share Posted June 24, 2005 Hey, You! You definitely know how to express what you're going through in your poetry and songs!! I know you're afraid, but knowing what I know, this guy seems to be willing to take things as slowly and easily as you need.... Hang in there, kiddo! Your walls will come down little by little, as you feel ready... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
From_Now_On Posted June 26, 2005 Author Share Posted June 26, 2005 I love it... i can totally relate to what you're going through... Sorry to hear that. ~frown~. We'll pull through though. =) Glad you liked it. take care, -fno Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
From_Now_On Posted June 26, 2005 Author Share Posted June 26, 2005 Hey, You! You definitely know how to express what you're going through in your poetry and songs!! I know you're afraid, but knowing what I know, this guy seems to be willing to take things as slowly and easily as you need.... Hang in there, kiddo! Your walls will come down little by little, as you feel ready... ~hanging in there~. lol. But yes. You are right. He seems to be a really great guy. It just worries me because I feel like he's this incredible guy..and then I realize that's exactly how I felt about the last guy. (and, granted, he was...just...not an incredible boyfriend). I guess I'm just a little nervous to fall into this when it looks just...too good to be true. So I am allowing myself to fall in (to an extent) but it's like another part of me is standing back and watching the movie. I mean, part of me is taken and lovin it and feeling it all. But, the other part...I don't know. But you're right. He seems to be a good guy. Too good even, far more gentleman-ly than I'm used to and devoted in a way that usually would turn me off (I know, it's what I want but it turns me off when most people are). And he doesn't ever try to push anything. Heck, hanging out with him i feel like a complete sleeze sometimes cuz I'M the one who leans over to put my head on his shoulder, or takes his hand, or scooches closer (All innocent things, but considering 'cuddling' is as far as I've ever gotten with a guy...it can make me feel bad to be the one who does all of that. I mean, it seems 'too soon'...though we've liked each other for weeks and been friends pretty much since he moved here (not closer friends til a few months ago though). But also, I love that about him. He LETS me be the one to initiate any little thing. It's hard for me to do and it makes me uncomfortable at times, but being pressured makes me MORE uncomfortable...and doing it myself let's me realize it's something I want...I mean, you of all people know how I struggle with that stuff. I don't know. anyway, this is all PM/e-mail style now. haha. How are *you* these days. lol. Wow. E-mail me PM me some time, okay? My mind just ran off on a lil tangent...happens sometimes, lol. Take care. -me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GettingOverIt Posted June 29, 2005 Share Posted June 29, 2005 Heya! I sent ya a PM before I had a chance to read through this... Take it slowly and enjoy yourself... I know, you'll keep your guard up, but I also know you'll be okay... ;-) I know how your tangents are, so I'm used to it! ;-) Write me soon, K? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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