Poem I Wrote: Don't Ask Me To Trust You

[From_Now_On]

Don't Ask Me To Trust You

 

He's so perfect

When I think of it

Everything about him

Just seems to fit

He's intelligent

And full of wit

And brushed up on his lit-erature

He's so mature

He reads my soul

Straight through my eyes

He holds me close

And whispers away the lies

 

So why-does he give me chills?

He makes me want to run away

He's all I've ever asked for

And something tells me he would stay

 

To save me

Not just treat me like a toy

I know I'm so lucky

To have met this boy

 

But…

 

I'm going to turn and walk away

I'll tell him that this just can't work

I know I'm acting like a jerk

It isn't like me

Maybe I'm just scared that it would be too easy

 

To fall into his arms

 

It's true he had me at hello

He told me I was beautiful

He looked into my eyes and took my hand

He held me in the sand

But I was shaking with fear

As he pulled me nearer

 

Am I crazy to want everything

And run away when I get it all?

Is it because of what I've been through

And how my trust has been worn so small?

 

Why do I squirm in my skin

When he pulls me closer to him?

Why do I always shiver in fright

When he sees that I'm broken and swears to make it right?

I guess I just like to put up a fight

Against anything that might mean that I could be okay

Even happy, maybe

He could save me

 

I guess I'll never know

Don't ask me to trust you

Cuz' I'll ask you to go

 

 

((I wrote this a couple minutes ago. I guess it sort of sums up how I feel about this guy...))

[neva_black_n_white]

wow. i can really relate to that. its odd because usually i can uinderstand but i dont tend to relate to others poems, but i can yours. its hard the way your feeling and to undertsand exactly why your doing this. i believe people like you and i set ourselves up for falls. its difficult to see that you can love someone but not allow yourself to get close. i know that a lad gave me his all but i took it upon myself to stop something that was, with all its faults, perfect. im used to, in a relationship, being not used but at the same time not being there for something truly meaningful and symbolic. i had this this time. however, i know that i just became scared, i became weak when i felt pult it. all this time id wanted something and i had got it with the right person but i felt suffocated, almost as if i was letting myself fall into the same shameful trap. so i left him. and do you know what, it killed me. because i left him not once, but twice, third time, every time he came closer i couldnt bare it. i know i love him, but in doing it i began to loose his love. dont let the past stop you because the forth time i lost everything.

 

a light that shon so bright

showed only to me your delight

you open your eyes without a tear

your body was stable because i was near

the foundation were brittle

and the materials were thin

but taking the construction away

let you in

i opened the doors

and let out a cry

like a kitten to a mother

you came to my side

 

i became scared by the difference

how large a step

for i hadnt seen you in a while

and there was a gap

 

i walked away

tale hidden aside

tucked away my fears

and changed my cries

 

you ran after me

to hold my hand

but this paw was removed

and the feelings were bland

 

the reunions continued

id cry again

you come to me

like the mother hen

id let you wander

protect aside

but it came to love and i pushed away to hide

 

i could go on and on

but the story is blunt

dont play with the lego

because pieces arent fun...

 

grasp it and dont loose out on him. i lost my first love.

 

Kel.x