Your Prince Posted March 11, 2013 Author Share Posted March 11, 2013 I'm interested in someone else at the moment, but I know that I won't be in presentable point in my life for at least another 2 years, more like 5. I've known her for a long time, & I would like to catch up with her. My breakup still hurts, & knowing you can't be with someone hurts. I guess that's just how it has to be for now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Your Prince Posted June 3, 2013 Author Share Posted June 3, 2013 I find myself trying to relive the past 8 years in my mind. I feel a great catharsis from it, likely because I have a bad habit of locking away my nightmares to haunt me down the road. this emotional release is not exactly pleasureable though. It's bitter & makes me wish I could go back. My ex made me think she was someone who she wasn't, & I feel that it turned me into someone I'm not. As a consequence, I've been lingering as a ghost, waiting for my opportunity to be reborn. The only problem is, that the rebirth I created for myself will not allow me to be the person I wanted to be when I was a young boy. I will have to assume this new identity & learn to live under that guise. Hopefully it will be better than being a clammy, misery-drunken husk of a young man. I know that I was born to be an outlaw like my father & to a lesser extent my mother. My clear judgement & sheltered early childhood won't allow such character mischief. Here's to the future. For now, I'll just fantasize about how one day I will make my own homage to the person who I was meant to be. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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