1m50L0nl3y Posted July 22, 2011 Share Posted July 22, 2011 I dont know if this is related to my birthday next week. Im just depressed. For the first time in 9 months Im completely unhappy. I feel lost, I look at the mirror and I dont recognize that man, i hear my thoughts and is so not me. I dont know who or what I've became. I dont know what to do. I cant speak, I must keep it to myself, its my best interest to not display how weak I really am, if I open my big mouth the only thing I will hear back is nonsense. I have constant headache and stomachache that wont go away, the only thing I do is smoke day and night. Grown up men dont cry, and Im refusing to let my tears come out, but just for tonight I will, not because of my sadness but because Im angry. If only she could see me while I do it I know she would realize that theres noone in this universe who cares more. But she will never know. How do you even start a conversation about your feelings without looking crazy? How to call someone and cry over the phone? Its unnaceptable, wrong, pointless, pathetic. I need to stay inside of my room and without witnesses. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
catfeeder Posted July 22, 2011 Share Posted July 22, 2011 Lean into grief, it's a strength builder. Head high, you can do this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chitown9 Posted July 22, 2011 Share Posted July 22, 2011 Start a journel on this site. It has helped many. Take care of yourself.....chi Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jjcool00 Posted July 22, 2011 Share Posted July 22, 2011 What happened? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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