reidqa Posted June 18, 2011 Author Share Posted June 18, 2011 With EW a 45 cal, the world peaceful why look 30 yrs since loving marriage with 2 successful grown kids. No Lily no required, maybe when and if old age calls an end of life. I hear of her passing the demon will die. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NightLily Posted June 18, 2011 Share Posted June 18, 2011 I think this is likely a problem within yourself where your pain and anger won't go away unless you address it. We aren't meant to go through life without bumps and bruises so if you can live with the stress of your emotions, it is your own burden to carry as you wish. However, it is genuine shame that you gave up your daughter because of these feelings. Did you just want people to know of your story or did you want some sort of advice? I'm not clear on that really.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Miss Firecracker Posted June 18, 2011 Share Posted June 18, 2011 I would not get over the anger if my husband were sleeping around either. And this story makes me think about what I'd do if that ever happens. I would surely be out the door on day one. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Miss Firecracker Posted June 18, 2011 Share Posted June 18, 2011 reidqa, I think you wouldn't have felt such hatred if you had just walked out the door. You continued to sleep with her, the whole time hating her guts. I think you are more angry with yourself than you are with her. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lamarthe Posted June 18, 2011 Share Posted June 18, 2011 and where was the child all the throught the counseling? did they advise you to ignore his existence? poor kid. i am sorry, you clearly went through immense hardship a long time ago...but the kid...don't even want to think what that little human went through. no love or affection. and none of it was his fault. he just ended up as collateral damage. i guess that's not what the thread is about. so never mind.good for you that you've rebuilt and good for you that you do not have regrets about missing out on your child growing up. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Silvergalaxy Posted June 18, 2011 Share Posted June 18, 2011 I agree with the others. It's good you left the marriage but I don't understand how you don't regret leaving your innocent child behind to pay the price. Even if you couldn't be around your wife, you should have paid child support which you proudly state you didn't. What happened to you was terrible but I hope one day you'll be able to recognize your own mistakes as well. You still have a lot of anger. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
reidqa Posted June 19, 2011 Author Share Posted June 19, 2011 I think you wouldn't have felt such hatred if you had just walked out the door. You continued to sleep with her, the whole time hating her guts. I think you are more angry with yourself than you are with her. **Not like today must try to reconcile. Yes I wasted 2 yrs. You state I have a lot of anger 30 yr ago if you read my post raped my EW post discovery for 2 yr, There was no love, holidays, birthdays etc. I agree with the others. It's good you left the marriage but I don't understand how you don't regret leaving your innocent child behind to pay the price. Even if you couldn't be around your wife, you should have paid child support which you proudly state you didn't. What happened to you was terrible but I hope one day you'll be able to recognize your own mistakes as well. You still have a lot of anger. **I would have killed her she was no more than a piece of meat, which my counselor was a danger sign. The EW was no longer human in my mind. Now imagine she needed to take me to court for additional support. This could/would have been a trigger of such an event. No actually pretty mellow as destiny has dictated prices. Lily, ***Destiny has created the payment she must bear. We are reaching end of life so any point is mute now. ***Again it sounds like I should have killed EW to have child. I take that is your stance. So clarify murder to have child nothing less. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Capricorn3 Posted June 19, 2011 Share Posted June 19, 2011 If you are strongly capable of murder (which you confess to time and time again), have such intense anger issues ("smashing windows, chairs, walls and car destroyed in fits of rage - broke his table with fist") etc, and you can so easily walk away and abandon your OWN young child, then you need some very intense long term professional counselling, as this behaviour is not normal by any means (imo). You seem to brush it off as if it's absolutely nothing, simply shrug your shoulders with a "so what" attitude. Again, not normal behaviour (again, imo). Just because some time has passed since this happened, your clearly still show these traits. I would still strongly recommend professional counselling, but no doubt everyone's advice will be ignored either way. Also, many here are not clear what advice you were asking for. It seems like this post was more about bragging about what you did (or how you were/are capable of murdering your ex wife). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LIzardKing Posted June 19, 2011 Share Posted June 19, 2011 Totally agree with Capricorn. You will not listen to anyones advice. You will just rationalize your insane behavior. I feel so sorry for your daughter. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Miss Firecracker Posted June 19, 2011 Share Posted June 19, 2011 Maybe he knew his daughter would be better off without him in her life. I wish Casey Anthony had given her child over to anyone else. Who knows what would have happened to this little girl if he had stayed around. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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