Sanesoul Posted October 17, 2011 Author Share Posted October 17, 2011 RIP Dan Wheldon. I've never been a racing fan, but what a tragic, tragic situation. My prayers go out to his family. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seraphim Posted October 17, 2011 Share Posted October 17, 2011 RIP Dan Wheldon. I've never been a racing fan, but what a tragic, tragic situation. My prayers go out to his family. I saw that SS. SO sad. I did not see the race but I saw the news. My son is into racing but NASCAR not Indy. Maybe try to think of it this way? He went fast and he died doing what he wanted to do and what he loved. How many of us get that? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted October 17, 2011 Author Share Posted October 17, 2011 Not many, for sure. My heart just breaks for his two babies though. They have to grow up now without a father. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seraphim Posted October 17, 2011 Share Posted October 17, 2011 Not many, for sure. My heart just breaks for his two babies though. They have to grow up now without a father. Yeah, that is heart breaking. That would come to your heart especially. HUGS. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted October 17, 2011 Author Share Posted October 17, 2011 Thanks Vic. It just feels so senseless and sad. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seraphim Posted October 17, 2011 Share Posted October 17, 2011 Thanks Vic. It just feels so senseless and sad. I know, it does. But like everyone who signs up for something dangerous like my husband it is what they have chosen. They know the risks. He HAD to race. Some people just HAVE to do what they do despite the risks. It is better to die doing what you love than a death from some long drawn out hideous disease. At least I think so. Burn hard and race hard and you are done, but happy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted October 17, 2011 Author Share Posted October 17, 2011 You are absolutely right Vic. I guess that's really the silver lining. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted October 18, 2011 Author Share Posted October 18, 2011 I'm spiraling again. Another bout of depression swinging in hardcore. I wish I had only one mental disorder to deal with. I hate it that when I finally feel like my anxiety is leveling out a bit, I get a bout of depression. So much happening right now that I feel like I'm losing it. I feel like I'm going under, and I really have to work hard to stay afloat. If not for me, than for my baby girl. If nothing else keeps me going, she will. She has to. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seraphim Posted October 18, 2011 Share Posted October 18, 2011 SS, I KNOW you will be ok. Remember in our darkest days God loves us and he wants to hear from us and he wants us to lean on him for comfort and support. Know that I am here for you too and pray for you. BIG HUGS. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted October 22, 2011 Author Share Posted October 22, 2011 Yesterday was a crazy day. Hubby was traveling to Germany, and lost cell reception in Amsterdam. I got an email from him at 5:30 yesterday morning, but NOTHING for the rest of the day. Delta can go to hell. I looked up his flight status, and they never updated it once it departed. This was an hour long flight from Amsterdam to Frankfurt and it was "In Flight" for about 12 hours. I actually had to call Delta to find out the actual status of his flight. Imagine how much this girl with high anxiety was freaking out. Apparently, he couldn't get the internet working and still had no cell reception at the airport hotel. Good grief. I was so thankful to wake up this morning to a message from him explaining that he finally got the internet working. No cell reception yet, but at least I have that. Last night my daughter and I had a nice mommy-daughter night. We went out to eat at a diner and watched Devil and Priest together. She fell asleep cuddled up on the floor, surrounded by about 15 stuffed animals. She was so sweet. I'm going to enjoy all the one on one time with her, despite how much I'll miss hubby while he's gone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seraphim Posted October 22, 2011 Share Posted October 22, 2011 Awww I am sorry you miss your husband too SS. We are in the same boat right now. I will Pm you with my own scary situation. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted October 22, 2011 Author Share Posted October 22, 2011 Honestly Vic, thinking of you helped me get through that yesterday. I kept telling myself, If Vic can get through what she's going through, I can too Thank you for being so strong. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seraphim Posted October 22, 2011 Share Posted October 22, 2011 Awww thank you SS. I am trying here but my poor back teeth are taking a pounding, Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted October 22, 2011 Author Share Posted October 22, 2011 I know it. My back teeth are worse for wear. I went to the dentist a few months ago, and found that all of my molars are heavily fractured. I can't unclench my jaw for the life of me, and when I'm really anxious, I clench even harder, to the point of causing pain to myself. It sucks. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seraphim Posted October 22, 2011 Share Posted October 22, 2011 Yeah, my dentist said my back ones are fractured too. One she said is cracking in half. One chipped yesterday. A chip came right off. I have to have that other tooth the one I had the operation for extracted on Nov 7. Then I get a partial plate after. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted October 22, 2011 Author Share Posted October 22, 2011 Yeah, my dentist is trying to get me to wear a guard, but I clench my teeth all the time. I don't think it would help me if I had to take it out all the time so I could talk. I'm not looking forward to repairative surgery, and I hope it doesn't happen for a long time. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seraphim Posted October 22, 2011 Share Posted October 22, 2011 I am going to get a night guard. I clench more at night and I always wake with horrid pain in my jaw in the morning. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted November 1, 2011 Author Share Posted November 1, 2011 My trust is shaken. I can't tell if it's my own issues causing it, or if I have a right to be upset with what you've done. Glad I have therapy tomorrow. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted November 1, 2011 Author Share Posted November 1, 2011 Just let me be for a couple days. I can't handle it right now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted November 1, 2011 Author Share Posted November 1, 2011 Feeling the transition into numbness. If I could retain information during this phase, I would embrace it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seraphim Posted November 2, 2011 Share Posted November 2, 2011 Awww what is the matter sweetie? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted November 2, 2011 Author Share Posted November 2, 2011 I sent you a PM Vic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted November 2, 2011 Author Share Posted November 2, 2011 So my therapist (here on called P) told me that it's time to work on the rape. It's destroyed my life in so many ways, and I want to take it back. I've kept it locked up for too long. I don't think this is going to be even an ounce of fun. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seraphim Posted November 3, 2011 Share Posted November 3, 2011 So my therapist (here on called P) told me that it's time to work on the rape. It's destroyed my life in so many ways, and I want to take it back. I've kept it locked up for too long. I don't think this is going to be even an ounce of fun. I here you there. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted November 12, 2011 Author Share Posted November 12, 2011 I have this sick feeling in my gut that I'm going to be single again very soon. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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