i_hate_the_world47 Posted July 23, 2004 Share Posted July 23, 2004 As i lay down in my bed Thoughts run through my tiny head Will tomorrow be the same Even though he is to blame Will his screams echo inside And will i have more bruises to hide I can never be for sure My whole life has been a blurr A blurr thats filled with blood and tears A big black blurr for fourteen years Will this life ever make sense Or should i make my life past tense Now i drift off into sleep But theres one thought i wish to keep Maybe my dad will finally learn That his fatherly love is all i yearn Comments are greatly appreciated Meagan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
brtlangst Posted July 23, 2004 Share Posted July 23, 2004 That's so sad. I know exactly how you feel. My father completely ignored me when I was a child...I felt that he didn't love me. I hope you and your father can work things out somehow. I know me and my dad did. Keep up the good work! -Amie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_hate_the_world47 Posted July 23, 2004 Author Share Posted July 23, 2004 its not my dad its my step dad.and he didnt just ignore me he beat the hell out of me.And he is in jail now for it.but i still wish deep down that he could have treated me like a daughter Meagan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
brtlangst Posted July 23, 2004 Share Posted July 23, 2004 Hopefully your step-dad will realize what he's done...have you ever tried to tell him how you really feel? I never could tell my father my feelings...we always keep our emotions pent up inside. Just remember, not all parents deserve to be loved, and you did nothing wrong just wanting his love. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_hate_the_world47 Posted July 23, 2004 Author Share Posted July 23, 2004 ya i tried to talk to him.until he started to beat on me.After years of beatings i told someone and he is in jail.He beat me so bad it was horrible.He was a terrible man.Yet i wanted his love.Which i thought was wrong meagan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
brtlangst Posted July 23, 2004 Share Posted July 23, 2004 It's not wrong, if anything you should be proud of yourself. After everything he did to you to still want love from this person you must be very strong. I hope you're doing okay today and that things work out for you in the future. Keep your loving additude and you'll be fine. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_hate_the_world47 Posted July 23, 2004 Author Share Posted July 23, 2004 ya im ok today.My step dad left some pretty deep scars but they will eventually heal.But i am glad that you and your dad patched things up meagan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunatic Posted July 23, 2004 Share Posted July 23, 2004 I loved the poem very much. I too hope you can get over this thing your step dad did to you. Keep up the great work and don't stop writing. Hubman 8) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
under_the_pressure Posted July 23, 2004 Share Posted July 23, 2004 Good poem! I really enjoyed it. Under Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jaiva Posted July 23, 2004 Share Posted July 23, 2004 It is normal for girls to want father figures even if they male is abusive. I don't think it was wrong for you to want him to love you as a daughter but it was definitely wrong for him to beat you. He deserves to be in jail. What I hope and pray for now is that you won't began to date men that are older than you because you feel that you need a father figure. I'm not saying that dating older people is wrong but if you reasons are wrong then its wrong. I once dated a person 4 yrs older than me and I'm still suffering from making that decision to this day. Just be strong and try to be wise. Jaiva Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ang3l2004 Posted July 23, 2004 Share Posted July 23, 2004 That was a great poem keep writing you are good!! very sad and emotional and anytime you need to talk pm me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_hate_the_world47 Posted July 23, 2004 Author Share Posted July 23, 2004 Thanks for the comments everyone.I am glad you all enjoyed my poem. Meagan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mahlina Posted July 24, 2004 Share Posted July 24, 2004 Meagan, that was a deep poem. You are such a great writer. Especially for your age. I hope that all goes well for you. It's okay. He's not worth it. Who cares about him. If he's mistreating you, then make sure that you're okay. Take care of yourself no matter what. Develop your way of your own independent thinking. As long as you're independent, and can depend on yourself emotionally, then that's all that matters. Once you find that peace/happiness within yourself, nothing else matters. No one else can and will get to you. All the best to you Meagan. Hang in there girl. We're all here to help you.-Mahlina Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_hate_the_world47 Posted July 24, 2004 Author Share Posted July 24, 2004 I understand that i should just forget about him b/c he mistreated me.but a small part of me wants him back b/c he was the only father figure i had.He beat me beyond imagining but i still somewhere deep inside loved him for some reason. Meagan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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