Tetsuo_Shima Posted February 4, 2010 Share Posted February 4, 2010 "Stupid". By me. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- I feel so impatient when you're around, in body or of mind. A loss of words strikes my lips heavily, and it leaves me blind. What is it about you that weakens me so? That paradoxical mind frame I've come to know... I don't hate you but I'm not sure I like you, back and forth like an ocean, I just can't find an even flow. For years and years we fight and befriend, slowly, but surely, I thought I'd found a trend. Withdrawn unto my shell to find a place to mend, After all: you wound me, intrigue me but I feel I must defend. Often you seem so arrogant, but I wonder if it were a front, to hide a weakened self in you, Do excuse me if I seem too blunt. I only mean to sympathize, my words not meant to chastise, but often mistaken I wish you'd realize, I'm not what the world sees. Alas it's something I'll take with me to the grave, my ashes you'd cast upon a crimson breeze. You make me feel so worthless, stupid and alone. The face you stare upon me with is solid like a stone. A pedestal your on, I can't reach you upon that mighty throne. I feel so little in your presence, insignificant to the very last, you and I both know it's everything to do with what happened in the past. I hate this meager existence, and I cry for something more, but by now I fear my plight to you is just too much a bore. I'll just sit here feeling stupid, pondering the stars, what my place upon them is, and will I ever get far? By now my words may have upset you, as they often do, I guess that's just my way of reacting, because I'm confused by everything you do. I never was good at understanding, such a thing I should be able too, So I'll walk away in silence, pretend to myself I know what I'm saying though I know this not to be true. Devastating every time, I'm sorry but I just can't seem to hate you. I Guess. That just makes me. Stupid. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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