All Alone. A poem. Any ideas? suggestions?

[Disturbed]

All Alone

I am all alone, I cannot see.

How all this silence came to be.

Shooting arrows, through bullet holes in the sky.

Biting my lip, so as not to cry.

Counting crows; one by one.

Watching children have their fun.

Crying and bleeding into the night.

Praying that nobody will turn on my light.

Trying to be something I am not.

Hoping that nobody will find out, that I wont get caught.

Working up my courage every day.

To finally end my life, I do not want to stay.

I feel my finger on the trigger.

The metal against my head.

My eyes I feel get bigger.

As I pull it and am surrounded by red.

I lay in a puddle.

Waiting for it to end.

I am bleeding and my thoughts are muddled.

I though this was what I wanted? I guess it is too late to mend.

I hear sirens in the distance.

It's too late, they've wasted their time.

Because soon I will seize my existence.

And the step ladder to hell I will climb.