lp3fan Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 I'm sorry for what I've done, I can't keep doing this. My life is meaningless, my will to live has ended. It's so hard for me to say goodbye, I love you so much. You are my everything, my reason to go on. I can't fight these feelings anymore, the voices are just too much. Tempted by my demons to show you who I am. I don't know how much longer I can fight to stay alive. Something needs to happen, something needs to change. I'm begging you to help me, make them go away. Get me out of this misery, in any possible way. I'm ready to take my life away, rob you of my soul. I need to know it's out there, a better life for me. I can't life my life without you, please dont leave my side. I'm so afraid of losing you, the pain inside is unbearable. I want to take my life away, I need to go away. Get me out of this mess, before I do it myself. Slicing away at my soul just ins't enough anymore. I need to be alone, I need to be free, free from my temptations, my demons waiting to strike. Make me face my demons, before they destroy me alive. Bleeding to make my soul happy, bleeding to make my life miserable. Staring at my scars know what they represent. Pain, anguish, tears, knowing it will never end. I need to go away, before I end my life tonight. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sunlovingme Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 Those are some deep words. I hope they are just words and not any truth to it. Sounds like you are having a rough time. Anything that you would like to share? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lp3fan Posted October 19, 2009 Author Share Posted October 19, 2009 unfortunately these words are true. im so tired of fighting every day just to end up the same way...depressed and suicidal. ive been battling these feelings since i was 16. i started cutting help cope with the pain i experienced as a child. it was easier to deal with the physical wounds then emontional. i guess i still havent been able to let go what was done to me, and i dont know if i ever will. after repeated suicide attempts, in and out of the hospital, years of drug and alcohol abuse, i just dont know what to do anymore. i feel like im stuck inside myself, comfortable in my situation. i dont know if ill ever be able to get out. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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