retired1 Posted June 6, 2009 Share Posted June 6, 2009 From a darker period in my life a few years ago..... ___________________________________________ At one time, there was a future. A sense of hope and belonging that two people share. In sharing our souls, there was peace, and the knowledge that life was good. At one time, there was happiness. Taking delight in each others strengths and supporting each others weaknesses. There was peace, and the knowledge that life was good. At one time, there was togetherness. Knowing that there was support and understanding. There was peace, and the knowledge that life was good. At one time, there was love. A love that burned like a beacon in the night. Unconditional. Special. Resilient. Tender. There was peace, and the knowledge that life was good. At one time, there was betrayal. And then there was forgiveness. Accompanied by the unconditional love that allows one to forgive. And yet, there was no forgiveness for yourself. Just guilt and self loathing. Now there is no peace. Life is not good. Emptiness, sadness, a deep ache where there once was life. Wandering, wondering, and tears of despair. No sense of direction, the winds gone from my sails. Am I destined to wander aimlessly forever? I dread the night, for it brings the dreams. Dreams that are shattered, broken, tormenting my soul. I awake sobbing, and reach for what's not there. I take no delight in the morning, because that spot is empty. Where there once was a delight in looking forward to the day, there is now nothing. A hollow shell stares back from the mirror. Where I was once complete, I am now nothing. At the day's end, the hollowness remains. A cancer eating away at the core of who I am. Tears. Lots of tears. An anguish that threatens to tear my very existence in two. At one time, there was love. A love that burned like a beacon in the night. Unconditional. Special. Resilient. Tender. That love is still there. If only she would reach out and accept it. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jeen Posted June 6, 2009 Share Posted June 6, 2009 I love it! It's beautiful! I think there are many on this site that can relate to these words, you captured it sow well with your words. It's beautiful. Thanks for sharing it. "Now there is no peace. Life is not good. Emptiness, sadness, a deep ache where there once was life. Wandering, wondering, and tears of despair. No sense of direction, the winds gone from my sails. Am I destined to wander aimlessly forever?" image removedNo! Your not! We all get a second chance or a third or a fourth.lol We just have to use it when it comes along. image removed Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
90_hour_sleep Posted June 7, 2009 Share Posted June 7, 2009 that is dark...i take it you've moved on from that situation. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
retired1 Posted June 8, 2009 Author Share Posted June 8, 2009 Oh yes, very dark. And yes, I've moved on from that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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