The Old Us

[Beoslasher]

The Old Us.

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We've faded

We packed up our memories

Kissing you, hugging you, loving you

put them away for a while

 

We put distance between us

to shelter ourselves from the pain

splinters of our relationship, our friendship

cutting deep inside.

 

Were reconstructing, nothing short of the sign

unpacking our feelings, pressed down into the box

pulling out love, and happiness

throwing away sadness, and remembering the good times

 

I want us to build back

I want a relationship

any relationship

I need you

I want you

I love you

 

Uncovering mental pictures

words, songs, hopes, fears

dreams, life, bones, soul, spirit

mind, throwing them out, talking about them

reflecting, collecting, improving, removing

 

But

I hide how I feel in poems

and I don't really talk that much about my past

or my feelings.

I want to be invincible but I cant

 

I need to open up again, remove this armor

cast off these fears, embrace you, let you in

I need you in my life, I need your love

 

And

I drink too much, too often

but only to cover the fact that I miss you, and I hurt

from my regrets, and my memories

I promise I would never hurt you

I'd never touch it again if I could have you

I just want that closeness we used to have

I'd give you my world

I'd give you anything

just to hold you

 

So I'll keep building

and working on what we had

just so I can have

 

the old us back.

[waveseer]

That's what I want my ex to do and feel.

[Beoslasher]

That's what I want my ex to do and feel.

 

I'm sorry that your going through a rough time. I hope he comes to his senses =)

[waveseer]

I'm sorry that your going through a rough time. I hope he comes to his senses =)

 

Thanks, it's not going to happen though. Time to move on. I just have moments now and then when I read things like your poetry and I realize that it's possible.

[Beoslasher]

Eh, if it works it works if not there is someone amazing out there for you I am sure. I have those moments too when reading other works or reflecting on my own when I think there is a definite way my relationship with the last girl i dated can get built, and maybe bounce us back to where we were. Its doubtful, but there is no shame in hoping.