forever_scarred Posted May 16, 2008 Share Posted May 16, 2008 This song explain how i feel exactly, every sentence, every word -- I tried to kill the pain but only brought more so much more I lay dying and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming am I too lost to be saved am I too lost? my God my tourniquet return to me salvation my God my tourniquet return to me salvation do you remember me lost for so long will you be on the other side or will you forget me I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming am I too lost to be saved am I too lost? my God my tourniquet return to me salvation my God my tourniquet return to me salvation I want to die!!! my God my tourniquet return to me salvation my God my tourniquet return to me salvation my wounds cry for the grave my soul cries for deliverance will I be denied Christ tourniquet my suicide I have tried many times to commit suicide but those times i didnt finish what i intended to do - this time i will - this time ill do it and i wont be back - nobody can do anything to stop me this time Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
blueangel Posted May 16, 2008 Share Posted May 16, 2008 Here is another song to consider. "Self Conclusion" by The Spill Canvas Fade in, start the scene Enter beautiful girl But things are not what they seem As we stand at the edge of the world "Excuse me, sir, But I have plans to die tonight Oh, and you are directly in my way And I bet you're gonna say it's not right" My reply: "Excuse me, miss But do you have the slightest clue Of exactly what you just said to me And exactly who you're talking to?" She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me" I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully" Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion Of self conclusion in one simplified motion You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it No matter how unbearable this misery gets "You make it sound so easy to be alive But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day When everything inside me has died?" My reply: "Trust me, girl I know your legs are pleading to leap But I offer you this easy choice- Instead of dying, living with me" She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me." I said, "I know, but I'd like to change that soon hopefully" Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion Of self conclusion in one simplified motion You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it No matter how unbearable this misery gets I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough I could stand here all night trying to convince you But what good would that do? My offer stands, and you must choose "All right, you win, but I only give you one night To prove yourself to be better than my attempt at flight I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap I will toss myself from these very cliffs And you'll never see it coming" "Settle, precious, I know what you're going through Just ten minutes before you got here I was gonna jump too" Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion Of self conclusion in one simplified motion You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it No matter how unbearable this misery gets ----------------------------------------------------------- You're right, friend. No one can stop you....not here, not around you. Only you can stop you. I've wanted to die before too, friend. I tried to kill myself once and fell on the kitchen floor. I pretended to be unconscious as my mom rushed down to see what happened. At the time, I wanted to die because of the verbal abuse from her boyfriend we were both receiving. The truth is life is unfair and it is something we can only accept and make ourselves better from. But anyways, she called my dad. My dad came over and he decided I should go live with him. The next few days in a new environment made me so calm and happy. It was like going from a war zone to a peaceful country. I was in shock at the sudden change, that the light came when I had given up. If it can happen to me, it can happen to you. I have to get offline now, but let's keep talking about this life thing. Im not going to say I can help you. I can only say Ive been there...and I have. And tomorrow I'll tell you more of what I know now....and maybe you can tell me more about your own life. Im so sorry you are suffering. I will pray for you tonight. I promise. Whether it means anything to you or not, I care. I used to be there, and I used to also relate to that song you posted. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
blueangel Posted May 17, 2008 Share Posted May 17, 2008 Hey you never replied! I was all ready to talk to you more today. I guess since you may not reply. I will say this: Dont run from problems. That is the greatest thing you could ever learn in terms of dealing with this life. contact me anytime. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
forever_scarred Posted May 17, 2008 Author Share Posted May 17, 2008 im sorry i havent been good emotionally today - maybe talk tomorrow Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
blueangel Posted May 17, 2008 Share Posted May 17, 2008 im sorry i havent been good emotionally today - maybe talk tomorrow aww it's ok. Im just glad to see you replied. Do you need some good music to listen to for some distraction? I really like music...and Maria Mena is very honest and sweet in her lyrics. Maybe you'll like it: link removed Have a good night and get some rest. Just cradle yourself. You've apparently been through a lot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
blueangel Posted May 18, 2008 Share Posted May 18, 2008 When you're ready to talk, just reply or send me a PM. Here is a poem you might like. It's one very special to me. Enjoy and ttyl! (hint: an Indian elder wrote it. how cool!) It's called THE INVITATION It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting you hearts longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn't interest me if the story you're telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. I want to know if you can be faithful and thereforeeee be trustworthy. I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty every day, and if you can source your life from God's presense. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon , Yes! It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children. It doesn't interest me who you are, how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in empty moments. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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