When you are alone

[Boughtandpaidfor]

Light floods in and eases my nighttime stirs

But only for a brief moment am I allowed any solace

It takes a few moments for the engine to kick in

For the thoughts, that I left so willingly, to find me

 

It takes courage to be alone and awake at the moment

Especially now- there's never a break from it

A constant humming of useless thoughts buzzing, buzzing

Flying round and round demanding attention

 

The insecurity kicks in first, asking what will you do today?

Then the hatred, and the pride, invade breakfast

Then futility of such navel gazing made all the worse

By the knowledge that once outside I'll start pretending

 

Life is with people, no great revelation made alone

Anything you decide is you has to be tested as them

You can't learn to enjoy life without a wall to bounce off

Solitude can lead to all manner of trouble best avoided

[Portage]

OMG, were you in my head when you wrote these words. I think most people feel this way, however, we may even avoid it and step around it in our own head.

 

Great work.