When You Know You're Better Off

[girlyantics]

You know what sucks? I bet a large percentage of us know that we are better off now, than being in the relationship that at one time probably drained us. Something that I have figured out though is that I am sad and hurt for almost selfish reasons. The rejection and the fact that he is not running after me professing his undying love and that he made a huge mistake is what's maddening. Not the end of the relationship cause I knew we would not make it. I think that if he would just do something out of character like pursue me I would feel a lot better. Not that I want him persay, but just to feel wanted by the one who rejected me.

Wow, I feel exactly the same way. I almost didn't want to admit it to myself because I felt it seemed shallow. But so agree, I would it to be him, the person who walked away from me just say, no thanks, f*** you. I'm better than you.

[renaissancewoman101]

I don't miss him so much... I don't want him back. I just want to stop feeling like I was so easy to toss aside.

 

I truly do understand what you mean, you want to know why they wanted you so badly in the beginning, and, at the end, why it was so easy to let you go.

 

I don't know what to say.

[girlyantics]

 

I don't miss him so much... I don't want him back. I just want to stop feeling like I was so easy to toss aside.

 

That hurts a lot. I think in the end, even after coming to terms with the problems in the relationship, I feel like that thought will always hurt me. I mistakenly read old letters a few days after and I was almost in disbelief of how much things had changed and our relationship was just a passing feeling. As a defense mechanism, I'd almost rather believe that he never loved me at all, that he never really cared, than to feel the hurt of being so easy to dismiss.

[blueangel]

hehe this thread makes me think of "Case of the Ex" by Mya