comfyshoes Posted October 18, 2007 Share Posted October 18, 2007 Four years and 357 poems. A five year friendship and every ounce of self respect I’ve accumulated as an adult. This is what it’s cost me to love you, to keep it alive, then watch in horror as it was exposed. It was left there to breathe and be toyed with quite often between years one and three before you decided it could be closed, but should remain slightly ajar which became the part of me that always hoped.... I can’t think of a better analogy than carrying a torch while I attempt to explain these years of my life but I wish there were better words, more dynamic imagery and traumatic associations, something so all encompassing and spot on that I would never have to write whine fest number 358. Your heart was breaking for someone else the last night that we made love. That part of you that once would have given both arms to be where I was had become a dormant cell, a person buried and a dream left to sleep too long to acknowledge its fruition. I would do so many things different or maybe I would go back and not have done it at all, every day is a wrestling match and now my heart breaks for you like routine maintenance that may be rescheduled but never canceled. This thing I carry has eaten through my hands but I am saving the ashes like severed parts that can be reconstructed in case it is ever dropped. Now, picture a grown woman hobbling with a torch between her wrists and weary arms, thinking to herself, why doesn’t this stop?? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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