TheFallenShadow Posted September 21, 2007 Share Posted September 21, 2007 Predictable.... yes well its seems at times i am that, but im not the only one, seems i am not the only one that has fell nice and neatly into place....LOL its almost humorous in a way, cause i should have known....that if i voice my opinion alittle to loudly or its not what one wants to hear....then they get all pissed off, and not talk or email...etc....you get the picture.... as it were, im to the point were i just dont care anymore....so everyone can take the jabs at me, and think what they want of me.. come up with whatever ideas, and paint me a monster....i just dont care anymore....maybe i should have just given up like those others have...but then again, i wouldnt be me, if i simply gave up... so as it stand, i just really dont give a $hit what anyone thinks of me anymore....either accept me for who i am or not.....either way it doesnt matter.... im stepping back to a simple way of life, where it wasnt so complicated, and quite frankly, i find that in general people make things more complicated then they need to be, but then again, i guess there is something WRONG with my brain housing group, or so i have been told repeatedly....hmm, so much for understanding my poinit of view.. oh well.... LOL....well anyways, im off to play guild wars....since that is what i like to do...LOL....in the end...there is only shadows and dust.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheFallenShadow Posted September 24, 2007 Author Share Posted September 24, 2007 You are no longer the light That I seek in darkness Nor the angel That I can’t see You took yourself away Cause you wanted too… You weren’t there for me As I wasn’t for you That’s the way you wanted it to be You choose this path For both of us… Teardrops fell Staining the sheets, Rivers flowed Hearts never to meet Empty arms Broken wings A shattered soul Not yours to keep My own hell Locked in my mind Soul empty Never to feel A phantom touch Ghost of a kiss A shadow for you Now that I don’t exist Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheFallenShadow Posted September 24, 2007 Author Share Posted September 24, 2007 hmmm. well almost there.... got a plan and working it now, pieces are falling into place as i had hoped.... thanks to NO ONE but me... what i have learned painfully again, is I have to be my own rock, because quite certainly there are those out there, that would rather turn tail and run...when things get tough...and me...im not running anymore. i am here to stay, for as long as i choose to... Im finding that my self imposed isolation, and stoic demeanor, suits me....and so with that, i can play the part, that i have been painted... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheFallenShadow Posted September 25, 2007 Author Share Posted September 25, 2007 i wake up every morning fighten mad....why that is just how my life is..... i was told once to not stand against the current of the river, and let things flow....instead of being the one that stood out. the rock so to speak,.... so trying to conformed to that idea, of "going with it, and letting it flow" didnt work...atleast not for me....and to that end what did it get me, but a brief moment of happiness, and now a lifetime of hurt...... someone else told me not to be so bitter... to late for that..... LOL....guess i will go back to being the * * * * * i was before....because at least then, i was more clear on where people stood with me, and where i stood with them. thats always a good thing to know, leaves out all the guess work, and not know..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheFallenShadow Posted September 27, 2007 Author Share Posted September 27, 2007 as it were, i was going through my email....and the ones that i have saved...slowly, reading each one....and feelings as it were gone from one end of the spectrum to the other... and i guess, i just wanted to know if she truly ever did love me..... GD i still hurt.....and she could give a wit about it...just wish i could go back, make things right this time...and she is right, i hate myself enough for every one else.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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