Im finding it hard to concentrate on reading at the mo but i do enjoy richard laymon books real page turners but my last book was the lovely bones good book but dissapointing end!
I am a person
but does anyone notice
i am a person
who wants someone to care
icu myself
i take the pills
but im still here.
I go to sleep
but not to wake
iwish i wasnt the one i hate
i dont know what i ever did wrong
to live my life all on my own
im not a bad human being
im just a guy who no ones seeing
it always seems that good goes bad
one day im happy the next ten sad
i want some hope that lifeill be fine
but lifes not like that especially mine
ive tried my best
cant try no more
should i end it just not sure
i went to hospital and loved it there when i awoke someone cared
they asked me why?
and then i lied
the truth is this
id like to die
i know my family and they may grieve
perhaps its best if i dont leave
if i dont wake up will people care
will they notice im not there
but this is my life
i want to die
im happy now so please dont cry
i dont want to get old and all alone
cos ive been young and thats been done......
andi8172
i wrote this at a low point
i cut a cross into my arm first time then i just wanted to go further i havent cut my arms for a while i do places people wont see,or i burn my arms and should anyone care enough to ask ill tell them i burnt it on an appliance .