err >_> hello o.o kind of my first post >_> but yeaaaa heh. when he talked about lusting and how its sinful that anything u lust for is a sin. don't straight people lust for the opposite sex as well? and you can't say oh that's different it's love because what is the difference between straight love and gay love? ionoo honestlyy i kind of think you should just tell him. you're just hurting yourself over something you shouldn't be you seem like a nice guy, if he's truly your friend then he'll understand. from the looks of it he kind of just seems to be in denial toward the idea that you might be gay because it isn't that hard to put 2 and 2 together to figure out what your hinting. he seems to really obsess over the fact that you can't be gay kind of makes me curious as to why but ehh iono. as far as all the stuff you notice about it, i'd be careful because some people do things unconsciously (is that how you spell it? >_>) and sometimes its all unintentional but you let your own feelings cloud your judgement and see it the way you hope or wish it to be. Also, what are you looking for in the outcome anyways? acceptance, or the fact that he might feel the same way? 'cause at this moment i think you should just worry about getting it out and see how things go from there. relationship is the least of your worries, you have a great friendship in your hands and you should try to keep that? iono im starting to ramble on about stuff right.. hope i helped some what xD