My bf and i are very serious, met 6 months ago. 2 months ago, before we went exclusive, he had asked me if i was talking to anyone else. I said yea before u i was but me and that guy never even met, bc i found u but he still msgs me. I said now i need to let him down easy since we are moving forward. This made him so mad, and i understood why. I apologized and reassured him that we hadnt even met, and that I'll just end communication with him. And i did! I literally ghosted the guy which i felt bad about.
Fast fwd to last week, he asked me randomly if i slept with my ex boyfriend (he knew i was dating someone last yr) I was so taken aback. I said im not answering this question. So he responds with ok so u guys banged. Im like ***! First question, how do u respond to this? If u say no, ur lying, and if u say yes, ur admitting. If u say i wont answer they'll know its a yes. We both come from religious backgrounds so generally speaking this isnt openly admitted.
Then he says "my gut tells me youre still talking to that other guy too". I said im not, said swore to god, he asked if i can prove it i said yes. i hugged him and told him there is no one but him and im not talking to anyone.. we had a nice normal day together after. Then, later that night he texts me a super long msg how i didnt show him my phone to prove and now its too late as i woulda deleted stuff. He accused me of lying and that I'm keeping him as an option. I went off on him for falsely accusing me, questioning my character and integrity..to which he said i invalidated his feelings that its toxic way of communicating, but he still loves me and doesnt understand why im lying. I literally had a breakdown bc i really am not talking to anyone. I wrote him an equally long msg saying how hurt i am by his accusation, i didn't realize he wanted to see my phone right then, im so happy with him no reason ill be cheating and ended the msg saying i suggest you follow your gut no point continuing with someone if ur gut and heart tells u otherwise. Trust is everything. We havent spoken in a few days now no reply.
I feel dumb for disclosing i dated and that i was talking to someone before him. Big mistake. I get he has trust issues. But, im not reaching out and begging for my innocence when i didnt do anything wrong!
Everything was going so perfect between us, he treated me amazing this is out of the blue . I'm so hurt and confused but if this is to end, I'll have to let it? Opinions?