I appreciate it.. if it doesn’t work out I definitely plan on spending a long time alone. That’s what I did before this one, I thought I got to a good spot tbh. I spent years single doi g hobbies with my good friends. Then I started watching gundam, which has love stories in them, and of course it made me mushy-gushy, and want it.
honestly, she’s a completely different person from when I first met her. I matched her energy towards me, and I never let it go. Somewhere along the way she definitely let hers go.. around the time I had to trade in the car because she “needed something new”. Which sucks because it was right after she moved in, and I was just so ecstatic and happy we were living together now, and then bam she’s here in a super depressive mood. Extremely obsessed about a car, to the point of moping about it. She said “somethings gotta change, or I’m gonna make it change, even if I have to leave” It was freaking me out, I was putting all this energy and effort in, and she was completely down.. I made a rash decision in a desperate attempt to get things back to the way they were.
but yeah, around then she changed.
these past few days she’s been a bit better towards me at least. Maybe it will keep up and we’ll get back to where we were.. one can hope at least.