I remember it like yesterday. The allure of loving someone unavailable was too strong to resist. There I was, standing in a crowded room, when my eyes found his. We had chemistry. It crackled like electricity between us as our eyes locked and stayed there, unwilling to move away.
On one level, I knew he wasn't available and should stay far, far away. “He's married,” a voice in my head whispered. But I was captivated. His attention made me feel older and wise, sexy and desirable. I was the envy of all my friends, the girl with the enigmatic, older love interest.
I tumbled into the trap that ensnares so many of us women. Like a moth to a flame, I ignored the danger and jumped right in. Little did I know I was headed for heartache and destruction. Being in a relationship with an unavailable man – be it because he’s married, having commitment issues, or emotionally scarred from past relationships – should send a warning sign flashing in your head; if only this were true. In reality, when we meet someone who appeals to us and makes us feel alive, whatever common sense we might have had takes a vacation.
The same happened to me. We had a roller coaster ride of emotion and attachment. He feted me with attention and shower me with love, pushing me higher and higher on a wave of giddiness. But no matter how close we seemed to get, something inside him kept him from truly committing to me. He wasn’t like other men, which only made him more desirable and appealing.
After a few months, the pain began to outweigh the pleasure and I knew it was time to break off the relationship. I was in emotional trauma. What I thought was an enrapturing dream was more of a waking nightmare. I felt violated, betrayed and unimportant. How could I, an otherwise independent, strong woman,
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